Life...

Well it's been a while since my last post. My last post of our trip was so amazing but it did bring on some unexpected health issues. The last six months have been full of Doctors, Doctors, Doctors, 6 to be exact. What we thought was a bug bite I received in St. Marteen that would just not heal turned out to be a very rare skin disease called Lymphomatoid Papulosis. It is a one in a million disease so it is very rare and they don't know a lot about it. Maybe it was never a bug bite and it was just my first bump or maybe the bug bit triggered it to start, they really don't know. I must say that has been the most challenging part of this whole ordeal is the waiting, hurry up and wait, wait, wait. Wait for test results, wait to see if this medication works, it has been a absolute nightmare. At least right now it is not cancerous and they did say that if I have not Lymphoma already before it is rare that it will turn cancerous. There is of course some medicine that will suppress the bumps but it is a pretty harsh drug and you can not use while pregnant. As many of you know we were going to start trying to conceive, finally after 7 wonderful years we were very excited for this year and all the new journeys but BAM just like that LIFE happens. Life can be so great at times and Life can be horrible too. Right now it is a nightmare.It makes you put everything into perspective. Why me, why when I have already had such a trying life am I faced with this horrible disease the rest of my life? My husband is my rock, he is honestly been the only reason I have been able to get through this. Our life together has been like a fairytale, we have the best relationship, a great house, best dog, great family and friends and sometime I felt too lucky to have it so great. So now once again I am faced with a fork in the road. I can dwell on it or I can live life. I choose to live my LIFE even faced with this hardship I have to deal with it and move on. It is amazing how our health can affect us so much. It is very hard to make these decisions, take harsh medications that have side effects or try your own holistic methods? My life has definitively taken a much different path that I never could have imagined. So just live life because you never know when it will change and if it does change be the stronger person to overcome it!!